Medicine Changes and Moving Forward

June 7, 2012 by kitthekitten128

 So I am getting rid of one of my medicines: probably one of the harder things I will have to do for now. I often feel like I need it though the doctor said it  doesn't help my mood much. Because of the side effects we are stopping it and not replacing it with anything else. That means I will have to deal with any depression I get. That worries me, but I am practicing today for instance, as I have a wave of depression right now. 

I bought a book on being healthy and happy (365 ways?) I am going through that and plan to take some notes. I know I NEED to work through the depression, problem is, I have never done that! I have always turned to pills (antidepressants) and I know I need to stop doing that. It will be hard, i Know.

My depression is rooted in boredom. I have a wonderful life, loving family and loving relationship, things are very good! I don't have a job though, I am sitting at home all day. For me to be happy I have to be busy and have a purpose. I don't feel like I have that right now, nor that I am contributing to my household beyond chores. When I get bored, I sleep. I don't know what else to do, so I curl up in bed and sleep till my head hurts. Its not way to live my life, but right now I don't have hobbies like I used to. I used to write and run etc. I want to try journal writing again. I also started a scrapbook. I know I need to find more hobbies htough. Any ideas? Cheap hobbies that is!

Well I have the interview on Monday. I am pretty nervous, but I feel sort of confident about it. i studied my Excel, practiced questions etc (that is the most nerve wracking part, the hour long interview). This job would be the answer to alot of my depression problems so it is very important to me. I don't know what to do if I don't get it! I am praying constantly that it works out. It is a wonderful administartive Assistant job at a respected company, something that was my goal all along.

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