I Hope God can Hear Our Prayers

May 30, 2012 by kitthekitten128

 Today I prayed so hard for an answer to my depression, for a medicine to not make me so tired. I prayed that I would lose my impulsivity, and think things through better. I prayed and cried my eyes out while I did. I am giving everything to God right now. My depression is a tough battle, one I have fought for 16 years. It peaks, then it diminishes. It is better once I am busy. I think a medication is working, and then something happens...a side effect or such. I get so frustrated by it all. Frustrated by the hurt I put my fiance through when I doubt his intentions in our relationship (something I truly don't doubt). I know  it is routed in the depression and alot in my OCD. I pray that I won't hurt so bad (as sometimes I do). I pray I will truly see my wonderful life and not be so negative. I try so hard for these things. I hope God can hear me. Its been a long battle.....

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