Feelin' scroogie, feeln' festive - needed a boost - you?

December 15, 2009 by govtmule

First of all, yes I'm posting - I'm like the long lost bastard-child:)

So for weeks now I have been hating everything about the holidays - all the shit to do - I've had no spirit. Got through Thanksgiving, cooked some "contribution items," had dinner - felt nothing.

Now Christmas is here. So close on the other "big family" holiday. Pressure to make it special; feel family warmth - blah, blah, blah...

Saturday I gave up my gym time and went to get a Christmas tree with dh and Jordan. Jordan complained the whole way about how long the drive was and "just pick a tree," blah, blah, blah... Nothing that got me in the  Christmas mood.

I used to get so excited for the holiday. Planned and decorated and felt a warmth about the season. Ever since we had the house fire that burned all my Christmas stuff, it's been hard to feel festive. This year, it has felt like a frickin' chore.

So we got the tree, dragged it in the house, put the lights on and then - nothing. No desire to finish it. Christmas boxes all over the living room and dining room - a total mess. Mess makes me nervous but still no desire to clean it up.

Then tonight Jordan asked if we could decorate the tree. Trying to be a good and excited mom, I said ok. We had the BEST time doing this together!!! No fights, arguments or BS! Just hanging ornaments. Normally, I'm picky about where the ornaments go on the tree (are you surprised at that?), but this year I could care less b/c the time spent together was so valuable and so totally put me in the spirit. I'm so thankful for that little boy. We have the most beautiful tree EVER!!! Truly, when I sat back and looked at it - it's my favorite tree in my whole life!

Happy holidays all!

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