tabitha's blog
I usually don't work in the summer, so for me it's usually waking up late and getting my house back in order. This summer, because of the economy I've been working at a pre school, and although I can really say I love where I'm working, I'm exhausted!! I know some of it's from working with the little ones, which I'm not used to but I think my body knows it's the summer and is not happy that the alarm is going off! By the time I'm at work I'm fine (except during the little ones nap time LOL) but the getting out of bed is terrible!!
My mom was here last weekend for my daughters graduation, we had a blast! I miss her so much, she is such a cool lady and it was so great to come down stairs and see her chatting with the girls like she was one of their girlfriends. She is so accepting and understanding they can talk to her about anything and they do. I think sometimes they forget how old she is LOL! Nothing shakes her and because of that they can share so much of thier lives with her. One night we stayed up till almost 1am with my oldest daughter, her new boyfriend, her friend and my s/s.
Having older kids is so much fun but one of the downfalls for me is the boyfriend situation. When they first start dating someone you think well I'll just keep my distance just in case it doesn't last but then years go by and you realize that you have turned them in to family in your heart. Which can be wonderful when everything is going great, it's so nice to have a close relationship with the person your child is in love with but when it goes bad the mixed emotions you feel can keep you up at night.
I can't believe spring break is over all ready, the time just flew by. I really didn't do anything special but I had a great time. My hubby and I really spent a lot of quality time together, it was great. You don't realize how little time you spend with your significant other when both of you work.
SOOOO it's bad enough that I'm back at work but I'm also having a day from hell. I started my day with a kid throwing up right in front of my desk OH LORD I just want to go home. :(
I've had one of those weeks where I feel like I've been chasing my tail and getting nothing accomplished. I've had so many errands and none of them went smoothly. It all got taken care of but nothing went my way and one trip always turned into four. On top of everything I think my hormones have been out of whack because when things didn't work out perfectly I was all teary eyed which can be a little embarrassing when your at a salvage yard with all men LOL!
This Sunday my oldest daughter graduated college, what a great feeling to watch her walk up there and recieve her degree! It was such an emotional time for me, where did the time go??
Every year we do Thanksgiving at our cabin in WV, it's a great place to just relax and it's where my hubby and father in law go every year for their hunting trip. Although I had a great time and came back totally relaxed it was hard to see that my father in law has become so grouchy! I felt so sorry for my husband, he looks forward to this every year, alone time with his dad. I have to say he wasn't grouchy with me but he constantly bites my husbands head off. I don't know if he is just unhappy in his life or this is just going to be how he ages but it is hard to be around.
Today is cheerleading compitition so I'm up WAY to early on a Saturday. This is one of the really fun times about being a mom. This past week hasn't been fun, watching my daughter look totally stressed about all she has to get done. She's the captain of the squad, which just adds to her already stressful senior year work load but I think she thinks it's worth it. Today though will be one of those times as a mom that you get to just enjoy the day while reliving some of your childhood days. As silly as it sounds, cheerleading is one of the only things I miss about being a teen.
My youngest daughter turned 18 last Thursday, big milestone in both our lives. It's hard to think about how much time has gone by! The sad thing is that my daughters are older and I no longer have my little girls running around the house but on the upside is they turned out to be fantastic women, I mean truly women I admire. How great is that to actually like hanging out with them and not just because I gave birth to them. The three of us celebrated by getting a tattoo together. We've been talking about it for a while and we knew exactly what we wanted it was just a matter of placement.
Yesterday I stopped after work for a drink with some of the women I work with. This might not sound like a big deal to most of you but for me it was. I NEVER do that, it's always work then straight home and get dinner going. I don't know what finally made me join in but I highly recommend it!! My hubby didn't seem to thrilled when he called and I told him where I was but, he got over it without saying anything negitive and I had a ball. It was so nice to unwind and just chat with some women.
Sorry girls, I've been bad about keeping you all up to date on the smoking thing. I'm still smoke free and I haven't been taking the Chantix anymore and I have to say I feel GREAT!! No cravings, NO WEIGHT GAIN, and no crabbiness!! I really think taking the Chantix help SO much. The dreams were a little freaky but well worth it. I would highly recommend it to anyone wanting to quit. I'm so glad I did this, I have to tell you all I really didn't want to when it came down to it but I had to since you all where counting on me.
This is going to be just a quickie to let you all know how I'm doing. Truthfully I don't even remember how many days it's been but I've been doing great!! I have said much about it because I don't want to jinks myself LOL. The dreams are still there but not as bad, probably because I haven't been taking the meds regularly. I really haven't felt like I've needed it. I want to thank all you guys for being so supportive and keeping me on tract!! Keep your fingers crossed that this sticks LOL!!
Yes, I'm still smoke free! I can't believe it myself, but so far so good. Here's a few of the things I've been going through. First, I have to say I haven't been as edgy as I thought I'd be, there are times I want to snap someones neck but come on don't we all feel like that sometimes? I try to keep myself VERY busy during the day, so needless to say I am now cleaning the clean spots in my house LOL. One of the big things I've noticed is when I think about this whole no smoking process it makes me want to smoke, sooo I don't talk about it too much.
So it's my third day of being smoke free and truthfully it hasn't been to bad. I think the Chantix has really helped a lot. I don't feel tense and that was one of my big worries. I think I'll be just fine. I have been keeping so busy with house work and projects around the house just to keep my mind off of smoking that after dinner I fall asleep on the couch! My house has never been cleaner and I have never been more tired but so far so good!!! I'll be checking back!
So day one with no smoking, a little scary but not bad. I haven't eated through the fridge yet and I'm not to crabby but I do feel a wee bit edgy. I've been keeping myself super busy around the house to keep my mind off of it and this seems to help quite a bit. The dreams are still pretty vivid but last night they weren't weird which is nice. I'll check back in later and let you all know how the day went. Thanks again for all your support!
